This week has been a strange one, lots of excitement and opportunity and not much time to get things done.
Early mornings and late nights with a foray into the unknown. A night at home with Kevin spending time with his mum, an opportunity for reflection.
This week I’ve been told I’m scary at work, and also intimidating: not really adjectives I particularly care for. I asked my kids if this is the case and it transpires that I have a ‘look’ that can wither and give off an aura of confidence that can appear intimidating.
This has staggered me as I am, underneath all that front, a very unconfident person, a people pleaser and very uncomfortable in certain social situations.
I know my job very well and always strive to be the best I can be, I can be very black and white about certain things, but always take into account the grey areas wherever I can. I also use humour to divert attention.
From these comments this week I have taken on board two things:
1. Very few people really know me at work ( their loss?)
2. I will try to avoid the ‘look’ and smile more!
I did some meditation this week at work and really enjoyed that clearing of the mind, so will definitely be doing more of that.
I’m not sure that I want to change how I am perceived at work, as perhaps keeping the two different me’s apart is a good thing!
We will see, I will try a charm offensive, failing that, buy lots of animal print clothing and be ‘scary’ spice! 😘